So...the work drama continues...that is all I can say for now. The rest is going to have to play itself out over the next few months...
Needless to say...this hasnt been the best week. However, I cant let it get me down or little Riley is going to be the one to suffer the most.
The more my heart rate jumps and my anger increases, so do his little kicks and turns and hiccups.
So...I will lay low and chill it out.
On a positive note...I thought I would save the best news for last...I just heard from Nick a little while ago and he won the Pan American Jiu Jitsu National Championship this morning. Yup, another gold medal for Nick :) Time to celebrate!!! Perhaps another BBQ where we watch his videos???!!! Hehehe.
We will let him decide...
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Hormones have feelings too...
I wish I had a hand held recorder with me all day long so I could record little snipits as my day goes along.
Like for example: today I went to go talk to my boss because I have been feeling pretty bad all week. My back pretty much starts hurting after 15 minutes at the computer and within about 20 minutes of being in my car, 2 of which are pretty important parts of my job. SO...needless to say my attitude at work probably hasnt been the best. So...to smooth things over, I went to talk to my boss and her first statement to me was..."so, when do you think you are going to go on disability?" My first thought was: "obviously not soon enough," but then my second thought was "wait, is she already trying to get rid of me? Hey wait a minute here..."
If I had a recording device, that would have been the point when I reached into my pocket, pulled out the recorder, hit record and said "note to self: boss thinks I am an ass and wants me the F out of here."Actually, I dont think she meant anything by it at all, other than you look miserable and so I want you to be comfortable...but in hindsight it caught me off guard a little. Is my attitude that bad where they would be better off without me...hrrrmmm...????? Nahhh....
Call it hormones, I guess. But I definitely am a little more sensitive these days.
Like the other day when I thought a homeless person got my account number off of some checks I thought I had appropriately torn up and thrown away. I began having a hissy fit like a 2 year old and Nick, as sweet and caring as he is, knelt down in front of me, while the biggest snot bubble I have ever seen was forming out my nose, and attempted to calm me down by saying "honey, he probably doesnt have immediate access to the internet...so stop throwing a tantrum" and I responded..."waaahhhaaaahhhhh, waaaahhhaaaaahhhhhh, but I want to throw a tantrum."
So anyway...back to the work thing...I am finding as a pregnant woman, things at work can get a little touchy. Apparently being pregnant is a "disability" and I am supposed to be treated as if I have a disability, whatever that means. I think it means that they can't legally discriminate against me, which is good. But I also think it means that my production at work is eventually going to decline and if I dont keep a good attitude, I just may lose my job...through some loop hole, somehow. (Nick says: "Sue the Bastards!")
And here I was thinking I was solid gold since I had the highest productivity for the month of February, by 8%. But bad news: today I looked and I am second to the lowest for March. WHOOOOPS. There goes my solid gold status and my leverage when my attitude is bad because I'm in pain. For example: "oohhh ya, you think my attitude is bad, well why dont you go check my productivity...where I am the highest." Nope, cant use that one anymore. Now they are going to say..."man, that Joanna has had a pissy attitude and look at her productivity...she used to be the highest, now she's at the bottom."
In my defense, March has been tough though...with the hospital visit, bed rest and now the terrible back pain. All I have to say is...at least they bought me a back support for my desk chair. That was nice.
Its funny when I sit here and rant. I think about my pregnancy and it really hasnt been that bad...but there are parts that have sucked. I guess it just depends on what day you catch me on and where my hormone levels are. Yesterday I spoke with my friend Anne and she said something to the effect of "I love reading your blog, but jeeez, is that what pregnancy is really like...is that what I have to look forward to?"
That got me thinking. There are some women who claim that their pregnancy was the most beautiful thing in the world and they had absolutely NO problems during the whole 9 months. (Nick says: "Bullshit.") And there are some women who will tell you too much information and say things like: hemmorroid and discharge in the same sentence, all while saying that they are excited they are having a little one.
So I guess the answer to Anne's question is...well, probably in some ways and not in others. I think everyone is different. That is one thing I am learning, esp. the more I share with other pregnant friends. Fortunately I have the good sense to laugh at myself on a daily basis, especially if I realize that I am being an illogical, whiny butthole. (Nick says: "I laugh at her too...Oww!")
One thing I have definitely learned is that for a woman who never thought I would have kids because I was some different kind of woman, a tomboy...I sure am having the most regular pregnancy you can have. (Nick says: "Told you.") In my week to week pregnancy book, I literally have every symptom they mention for that week and have hit every landmark they talk about pretty much on time. So...that is kinda cool.
Like for example: today I went to go talk to my boss because I have been feeling pretty bad all week. My back pretty much starts hurting after 15 minutes at the computer and within about 20 minutes of being in my car, 2 of which are pretty important parts of my job. SO...needless to say my attitude at work probably hasnt been the best. So...to smooth things over, I went to talk to my boss and her first statement to me was..."so, when do you think you are going to go on disability?" My first thought was: "obviously not soon enough," but then my second thought was "wait, is she already trying to get rid of me? Hey wait a minute here..."
If I had a recording device, that would have been the point when I reached into my pocket, pulled out the recorder, hit record and said "note to self: boss thinks I am an ass and wants me the F out of here."Actually, I dont think she meant anything by it at all, other than you look miserable and so I want you to be comfortable...but in hindsight it caught me off guard a little. Is my attitude that bad where they would be better off without me...hrrrmmm...????? Nahhh....
Call it hormones, I guess. But I definitely am a little more sensitive these days.
Like the other day when I thought a homeless person got my account number off of some checks I thought I had appropriately torn up and thrown away. I began having a hissy fit like a 2 year old and Nick, as sweet and caring as he is, knelt down in front of me, while the biggest snot bubble I have ever seen was forming out my nose, and attempted to calm me down by saying "honey, he probably doesnt have immediate access to the internet...so stop throwing a tantrum" and I responded..."waaahhhaaaahhhhh, waaaahhhaaaaahhhhhh, but I want to throw a tantrum."
So anyway...back to the work thing...I am finding as a pregnant woman, things at work can get a little touchy. Apparently being pregnant is a "disability" and I am supposed to be treated as if I have a disability, whatever that means. I think it means that they can't legally discriminate against me, which is good. But I also think it means that my production at work is eventually going to decline and if I dont keep a good attitude, I just may lose my job...through some loop hole, somehow. (Nick says: "Sue the Bastards!")
And here I was thinking I was solid gold since I had the highest productivity for the month of February, by 8%. But bad news: today I looked and I am second to the lowest for March. WHOOOOPS. There goes my solid gold status and my leverage when my attitude is bad because I'm in pain. For example: "oohhh ya, you think my attitude is bad, well why dont you go check my productivity...where I am the highest." Nope, cant use that one anymore. Now they are going to say..."man, that Joanna has had a pissy attitude and look at her productivity...she used to be the highest, now she's at the bottom."
In my defense, March has been tough though...with the hospital visit, bed rest and now the terrible back pain. All I have to say is...at least they bought me a back support for my desk chair. That was nice.
Its funny when I sit here and rant. I think about my pregnancy and it really hasnt been that bad...but there are parts that have sucked. I guess it just depends on what day you catch me on and where my hormone levels are. Yesterday I spoke with my friend Anne and she said something to the effect of "I love reading your blog, but jeeez, is that what pregnancy is really like...is that what I have to look forward to?"
That got me thinking. There are some women who claim that their pregnancy was the most beautiful thing in the world and they had absolutely NO problems during the whole 9 months. (Nick says: "Bullshit.") And there are some women who will tell you too much information and say things like: hemmorroid and discharge in the same sentence, all while saying that they are excited they are having a little one.
So I guess the answer to Anne's question is...well, probably in some ways and not in others. I think everyone is different. That is one thing I am learning, esp. the more I share with other pregnant friends. Fortunately I have the good sense to laugh at myself on a daily basis, especially if I realize that I am being an illogical, whiny butthole. (Nick says: "I laugh at her too...Oww!")
One thing I have definitely learned is that for a woman who never thought I would have kids because I was some different kind of woman, a tomboy...I sure am having the most regular pregnancy you can have. (Nick says: "Told you.") In my week to week pregnancy book, I literally have every symptom they mention for that week and have hit every landmark they talk about pretty much on time. So...that is kinda cool.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Has it been 9 months yet?
So...the weeks keep passing and I keep growing. According to my 22 week email today I should be looking forward to vascular spiders and stretch marks starting...now. This is going to be an awesome week, I can feel it!
Actually, speaking of feeling. Yesterday I actually felt him move in and poke me in more than one spot at a time for the first time. Up until yesterday, I would only feel him move at random times in the morning and before bed. It mostly felt like he would throw an elbow or kick, maybe 3 times in a row, tops. BUT now...I can actually feel him do a summersault and move side to side. It is kinda creepy and made me sick the first time I actually felt it. But now it feels cool. Now that my uterus is above my belly button, I am also starting to feel him higher in my guts which is interesting. I got so used to him being low, it is weird to feel him kick near my ribs. Its a trip to think about how big he actually is getting.
Today has been kinda a rough day. I woke up with nausea, again. Just when I thought it was going away. For some reason it is back in full force today. I have been feeling extra exhausted and run down. I am noticing it is getting harder to go to work and want to actually stay there. Good thing I only have 3 1/2 more months :) Actually...man, that sounds like a long time...well, not when I think about getting the back room in order. That is going to be a chore!
Now that I am thinking of it...does anyone need a desk or possibly a bookshelf? Or a couch? Seriously, let me know if you do cause I think we are just gonna chuck everything. Except for my turntables...those will have to stay, somewhere.
So...here are some recent pics. I am trying to figure out how to put the pics in with the text....for some reason it hasnt let me do it in the past.
Actually...check down at the bottom for the pics, for some reason it only lets me put them at the top of the text. Not what I wanted...
Ohhh, also...CONGRATS to Dave and Judy. They just had a little boy, Gabriel. And also a late CONGRATS to Robin and Matty...with their boy Will and Jill and Brian with their daughter Ellie :)
It must be baby season :)
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
L & D
So, yesterday we had a little minor tiny scare. I was at work and began having intense cramping and at one point I remember thinking "if this is what labor feels like, then I dont want this kid to ever come out!" So I called the advice nurse and she said "come in" and I said "anytime today?" and she said "no, now!" Naturally I was a little concerned after hearing the sense of urgency in her voice, so I called Nick and we were on our way to labor and delivery...for the first time. We still havent even had the tour of the hospital yet and we were already making use of it. Thats just like us...
So, after an hour and a half in the waiting room watching and listening to 3 different ladies talk openly about their symptoms of CURRENTLY being in labor and how many pads they've gone through, I began to think...what the heck are we doing!? We are having a kid. OMG!
According to all the nurses that kept walking by, this was the "busiest" day they had seen in months. And as Nick said, the staff was having a hard time hiding their chaos. At one point, the triage nurse came up to all of us in the waiting room and said something to the effect of "so, there is a room available, who do you think should go next?" Nick actually laughed out loud. Um, I'm sorry, arent you the TRIAGE nurse? WOW! If this was any indication of what was in store for us when we were actually going to deliver...we were in TROUBLE!
Luckily our midwife was there and shared that was not normally how l & d was run and that in the future if I feel like I need to be "next" I can tell them and they will take me immediately. Good to know!
So...turns out, all is fine. We heard the babies heart rate for 30 minutes straight (which they said was almost unheard of...apparently our baby has a super strong heart!) and I wasnt having contractions...so it was probably just stress or growing pains. They put me on bedrest for today...which was much needed. Thank goodness for MTV and blogging...back to work tomorrow :(
So, after an hour and a half in the waiting room watching and listening to 3 different ladies talk openly about their symptoms of CURRENTLY being in labor and how many pads they've gone through, I began to think...what the heck are we doing!? We are having a kid. OMG!
According to all the nurses that kept walking by, this was the "busiest" day they had seen in months. And as Nick said, the staff was having a hard time hiding their chaos. At one point, the triage nurse came up to all of us in the waiting room and said something to the effect of "so, there is a room available, who do you think should go next?" Nick actually laughed out loud. Um, I'm sorry, arent you the TRIAGE nurse? WOW! If this was any indication of what was in store for us when we were actually going to deliver...we were in TROUBLE!
Luckily our midwife was there and shared that was not normally how l & d was run and that in the future if I feel like I need to be "next" I can tell them and they will take me immediately. Good to know!
So...turns out, all is fine. We heard the babies heart rate for 30 minutes straight (which they said was almost unheard of...apparently our baby has a super strong heart!) and I wasnt having contractions...so it was probably just stress or growing pains. They put me on bedrest for today...which was much needed. Thank goodness for MTV and blogging...back to work tomorrow :(
Friday, March 7, 2008
I have lost my head...
So, I have heard many women say that being pregnant has made them "spacy" or "forgetful" and well, I thought they were crazy...that is until this week.
For the past 3 days, I have been so forgetful and dumbfounded that I actually wiped before I even peed the other day. I know that probably sounds like TOO MUCH INFORMATION, but comeon...its pretty funny when you think about it.
I feel like I am in a movie half the day. A really funny movie, but also kinda scary at times. I have forgotten where I am going twice this week...began driving and got about 2 blocks along and thought..."wow, its pretty out, wait, where the hell am I going?" And one time I left my keys hanging out of my trunk and when I got in the car and tried to start the car, I freaked out cause my keys werent there. I thought "OMG, I just locked my keys in the trunk...how am I going to get them out?" Well, DUH!!!!!! First, they werent even in the trunk and second, my car was already unlocked so all I would have had to do was 'pop' the trunk.
Lets see...other dumb things...completely forgot what Nick was talking about in the middle of a conversation. He left the room, came back in and finished the story and I couldnt figure out what the hell he was talking about. After how lost I looked, he broke down laughing and said "WOW, you REALLY dont know what I was saying a minute ago do you?"
I am so glad to hear other pregnant women go through this too. Otherwise I would feel like I am losing my marbles.
Its funny though how it just started this week. I guess it make sense though cause it seems like every week something new begins and other things disappear...
Last week my ribs felt like they were going to pop out of my body and I had a huge growth spurt. The week before I was so sick I popped blood vessels in my face when I barfed. And now that my memory is so bad, I cant even remember what happened the week before that.
I am just glad it is Friday and glad the weather is supposed to be nice this weekend. Too bad I cant drink a cold one to celebrate Spring. Soon enough I guess.
More pics to come...Loki included. He is getting HUGE! And so am I!
Peace out...Jo
For the past 3 days, I have been so forgetful and dumbfounded that I actually wiped before I even peed the other day. I know that probably sounds like TOO MUCH INFORMATION, but comeon...its pretty funny when you think about it.
I feel like I am in a movie half the day. A really funny movie, but also kinda scary at times. I have forgotten where I am going twice this week...began driving and got about 2 blocks along and thought..."wow, its pretty out, wait, where the hell am I going?" And one time I left my keys hanging out of my trunk and when I got in the car and tried to start the car, I freaked out cause my keys werent there. I thought "OMG, I just locked my keys in the trunk...how am I going to get them out?" Well, DUH!!!!!! First, they werent even in the trunk and second, my car was already unlocked so all I would have had to do was 'pop' the trunk.
Lets see...other dumb things...completely forgot what Nick was talking about in the middle of a conversation. He left the room, came back in and finished the story and I couldnt figure out what the hell he was talking about. After how lost I looked, he broke down laughing and said "WOW, you REALLY dont know what I was saying a minute ago do you?"
I am so glad to hear other pregnant women go through this too. Otherwise I would feel like I am losing my marbles.
Its funny though how it just started this week. I guess it make sense though cause it seems like every week something new begins and other things disappear...
Last week my ribs felt like they were going to pop out of my body and I had a huge growth spurt. The week before I was so sick I popped blood vessels in my face when I barfed. And now that my memory is so bad, I cant even remember what happened the week before that.
I am just glad it is Friday and glad the weather is supposed to be nice this weekend. Too bad I cant drink a cold one to celebrate Spring. Soon enough I guess.
More pics to come...Loki included. He is getting HUGE! And so am I!
Peace out...Jo
Monday, March 3, 2008
As plomised...
Ultrasound pictures. Our scanner is not cooperating, so I just took pictures of the U/S pictures. I think they came out ok. Not that any of you will really be able to tell what the pictures actually are. I can barely tell and I am his mom. Mom. Wait, that sounds freaky. I am his mom. Not used to that one yet. Hrrrm. Actually, now that I think of it, I took pics of the ones that were pretty self explanatory. ENJOY!
Ohhh, and thanks for all the input on names. I think I like Cleveland the best. Ohh and Leotardic Fantastic...or whatever it was :)
Ps. scroll down for more pics in addition to the U/S ones
Ohhh, and thanks for all the input on names. I think I like Cleveland the best. Ohh and Leotardic Fantastic...or whatever it was :)
Ps. scroll down for more pics in addition to the U/S ones
Saturday, March 1, 2008
I am a total dork!!!!!!!!!!
If you vote in the name poll, I spelled the first name wrong. It is supposed to be Aidan. NOT Adain. It is too early in the morning for me, obviously. OR maybe that is a sign. If I cant spell it, maybe we shouldnt name him that :) OOOPS!
Jo
Jo
Almost 20 weeks and...
Its a BOY! Sorry to keep you guys in suspense, but I am obviously not that hip to blogging yet. So, a little boy. I already have a little rash guard and board shorts picked out for him over at the mall. Now if he would just hurry up and get here.
Thank you all for your kind words and support. I didnt realize you could put comments on the blog and I just read them. You guys ROCK! Well, of course you do because you are my friends. HA.
So, I am sure you all came to the blog to read about my barfing...so here's alittle update: luckily the barftastic bouts have sort of gone by the wayside, but I am still getting random spurts of nausea that just lead to...sneezing. I know, isnt that weird? I feel sick like I am gonna barf...then to my surprise...I sneeze.
Man, pregnancy is weird.
My belly is growing by the minute now. And apparently so is my ass. According to one of my lovely clients. As I (nicely) went to open my car door for her, I hear from behind me "Damn Joanna, your ass is getting HUGE!" I almost wielded back "Oh ya, well you are mentally ill." Thank goodness my senses came to me and I nicely said "Thank you for noticing. Now lets talk about social graces when you are in the community!"
Apparently when you are pregnant people feel they have a license to comment on your growing parts. The only think I think when they are saying those things, well, other than "F U" is..."ahhh, they must be in so much pain." Whatever. Sometimes its funny.
Like the other day when I was in the elevator. A lady asked me how far long I was and I kindly said "Ohh, I'm not pregnant." The look on her face was priceless. All the color went into her neck. It was hilarious.
I have some pictures of the ultrasound that I will put on here so you guys can see what our little man looks like. So far, he looks adorable. We got a picture of his little foot and it makes me melt everytime I look at it.
Since the ultrasound, we have definitely become more attached. Its kinda weird. Now were are thinking of names, seriously. That is hard. We have at least 5. Well, 4 that Nick like and 1 that I REALLY like, but he is not too keen on. Our midwife loved the name, so now Nick has at least added it to the list.
That reminds me...we were thinking of doing a name poll. Perhaps I should do that now. You should be getting something in your email soon :)
Off to the gym...have a good weekend all!
All our love,
Jo * Nick
Thank you all for your kind words and support. I didnt realize you could put comments on the blog and I just read them. You guys ROCK! Well, of course you do because you are my friends. HA.
So, I am sure you all came to the blog to read about my barfing...so here's alittle update: luckily the barftastic bouts have sort of gone by the wayside, but I am still getting random spurts of nausea that just lead to...sneezing. I know, isnt that weird? I feel sick like I am gonna barf...then to my surprise...I sneeze.
Man, pregnancy is weird.
My belly is growing by the minute now. And apparently so is my ass. According to one of my lovely clients. As I (nicely) went to open my car door for her, I hear from behind me "Damn Joanna, your ass is getting HUGE!" I almost wielded back "Oh ya, well you are mentally ill." Thank goodness my senses came to me and I nicely said "Thank you for noticing. Now lets talk about social graces when you are in the community!"
Apparently when you are pregnant people feel they have a license to comment on your growing parts. The only think I think when they are saying those things, well, other than "F U" is..."ahhh, they must be in so much pain." Whatever. Sometimes its funny.
Like the other day when I was in the elevator. A lady asked me how far long I was and I kindly said "Ohh, I'm not pregnant." The look on her face was priceless. All the color went into her neck. It was hilarious.
I have some pictures of the ultrasound that I will put on here so you guys can see what our little man looks like. So far, he looks adorable. We got a picture of his little foot and it makes me melt everytime I look at it.
Since the ultrasound, we have definitely become more attached. Its kinda weird. Now were are thinking of names, seriously. That is hard. We have at least 5. Well, 4 that Nick like and 1 that I REALLY like, but he is not too keen on. Our midwife loved the name, so now Nick has at least added it to the list.
That reminds me...we were thinking of doing a name poll. Perhaps I should do that now. You should be getting something in your email soon :)
Off to the gym...have a good weekend all!
All our love,
Jo * Nick
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